A Love Letter to my Past Self

Hey it's been a while...but I just wanted to let u know I was thinking about you...

and no..not In the way i used to but in less ways now then before....

Like when I've gone thru my whole day and only thought about you twice that's growth.

I am saying that to tell you it was hard at first.

I have realized that without these lessons without this mirror I would've not known what love truly was.

What it looked like and what it didn’t, what it felt like and how I didn’t feel it...

How loving myself just less enough...

Was just enough to send me back to u...

How in love I was with who I was, but how madly in love I am with who I am becoming now... This has brought me back to whom I know myself to be worthy of.

How self love at all stages of my life is the best part of my life....

So yes I still think about how in tune we were how I could listen to you talk for hours...

and how secretly ..... somedays...

Your the only place I want to be...

I know that the mirrored old me is no longer of existence...

I realize more now that it's a fainting memory of you that I still hold onto...

That I have to cherish.... that me and only me holds...

It's forgiving myself for letting it affect me the way that it does…and how there are times I think of you and become saddened...

But are more reminded of the happiness I have found bc of you.

I will always find a forever within our eternal and unconditional love shared. But know the reason for you is to remind me that I can, and will do it solely on my very own.

There has n will always be parts of you that I take with me on this journey,

and those things will never be forgotten!!

And finally when we've reached the ends of the earth...

When we meet again...

We will have years n years of things to talk about...reminisce on and cry for.

I will find you there as I will be waiting to share this experience with you once again.

Until next time my love, always and forever infinity and beyond...

I love you always.

As this love letter speaks somewhat to my old self and old wounds, this is also one form of my expression to cut the cord on relationships that were no longer serving me for my highest good....this was how i let HIM, HER, THEM, go...with love in my heart.

Brianna